“It’s in Christ we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone.” – Ephesians 1:11
This is my journey into following Christ. My story. My day by day as I let Christ into my heart. My thoughts, feelings and struggles. If you stumble across this blog please share so maybe I can inspire just one person.
My story is no different from anyone else’s. Except fro one thing: I don’t know who Christ is. Sure, I know of Heaven and Hell, how the world was created, but I don’t really truly know Him. I am your basic 24 year old young lady. I work for a local preschool with an amazing staff. I have a husband, we live in our tiny one bedroom apartment. We struggle with finances at times but ya know, who doesn’t? Life isn’t easy but it isn’t to terribly complicated either.
I started today off thinking that life was amazing, thinking there is not to much that needs to change. Guess what! I was surely mistaken… I went to my local church service as I sometimes do, I had never made it an every Sunday thing and really hadn’t made church a priority. Today however, was different. The sermon was about disciples and being one. The sermon made me realize I was a fair weather fan of Christ and not a follower. This pretty much broke my heart. How can I live my life by Christ but not follow him. Thus starting the biggest change I will ever go through.
After church, my friend and I went to our local bookstore where I bought my very first Bible. I’m 24 years old, married, and had realized I had never bought one. I also purchased The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth am I Here For?. This is a guide to help me connect with in 40 days time.
As soon as I got home I got on Facebook and announced to my friends and family what I was going through and that I was trying to find my way to Christ. I then announced my deactivation from social media. So many positive comments were thrown my way, but some negative ones to. Some people in my life don’t understand the emotional hardships I have been facing over the past few months. It has been an emotional roller coaster.
Thankfully my friend has agreed to go on this roller coaster with me. She has agreed to reconnect herself to Christ as well. So, we started on chapter one.
Chapter one was rough. My life is not about me. This was a very hard concept for me to understand. How can my life not be about me? Am I not supposed to be and do what is best for me? No, I am supposed to be and do what is best for Christ. “You were made by God and for God, until you understand that life will not make sense”. I just have to remember that my life is not mine. It is his.
As I pursue this journey I hope to become more active in my church, become baptized, and live my life according to Christ. For now however, my beef stroganoff that has been cooking all day is finished for dinner and my family will be here soon. Tomorrow will be a new day and I can let you know how the family takes my following a new path. Until tomorrow……..
Stephanie